And now for something completely different

It's been a bit of a month and a half.

First, I go on a medication that literally begins changing my life like none other has before. It was amazing how well I was responding. Then I got the rare and deadliest side effect - a rash. I went to the hospital. Everything was OK, but I had to immediately stop the meds which really screwed with me and sent me into a fairly confused and physically stressed placed space.

During this time, I got a call from a recruiter and went through a very fast and very intense interview process with NPR. This was my dream job. 5 interviews later, they made me an amazing offer which I accepted. The offer was contingent on a background check. I wasn't worried. The background check took two weeks. While waiting for the background check, I started on a new medication. This one wasn't so great. It screwed with my body temperature and caused my appetite to go through the roof. I binged in ways I haven't binged in years. It also made me VERY angry. Not good, but I was starting to deal.

At the end of the two weeks, they called me to tell me that the offer was rescinded; my credit score didn't meet their standards. I tried to fight it; the hiring manager even took the issue to NPR senior management, but in the end, they said that my credit made me a "legal liability".

After NPR accepted then rejected me, I crashed for a couple of days. I focused all of my energy on my cycling. I was doing crazy 30-40 mile treks. But the meds were making me angrier and angrier, and I was binging to frightening levels, so I tapered off the meds.

That's when I started something new. I swore that if this one didn't work well, I'd go on a drug holiday. I started it three weeks ago and the last three weeks have been a blur. I've literally lost that time. I've faded and have been silenced. I've read many people's reports of going on this stuff and having their minds disappear until getting up to the correct dosage; that's where I am now - approaching the correct dose.

And all would be well but....

Last Tuesday I had an appointment with the ENT (Ear, Nose, Throat doc) to assess my tonsils for removal. I've been having obstructive breathing issues for awhile now and my doc said that my tonsils were huge, so lets see what the options are.
The ENT pokes around and says, "your tonsils are normal. Sure, they're infected. I bet this happens a lot." Yep. "Totally normal for some people. I'm more concerned about the large mass in your neck."

Large mass in my neck?

LARGE MASS IN MY NECK?
WTF?

So, I have a CAT scan scheduled for next Thursday. I can't do a damned thing but guess at what's up until then. I suspect it's my thyroid as the "mass" looks suspiciously like a goiter. And if it IS my thyroid, that could very well explain some of the unexplained mysteries of the last few years. No doc has ever checked my thyroid before and no doc has ever asked if it's been checked.

*crosses tentacles*